Sunday, March 17, 2013

A note to myself.

Bismillah, Alhamdulillah.:)

MashaAllah, I know! It has beeeen ages kan. Lama sangat tak update blog ini. Tahu tahu dah 17 March 2013. I am already half way through of my 4th year. Ke mana perginya masa? I do not even know.

How are you? Alhamdulillah, I am all good! Macam biasa, ada hari bersemangat, ada hari yang macam tak nak buat apa apa. Hari tak nak buat apa apa itu no good! no good at all. Sebab itu sama ada my nafsu or syaitan menghasut. Ustaz Amin pesan bila rasa macam helpless sangat, recite this as much as we could.

So, where are we just now? Oh tengah cakap pasal kehidupan lately. There is one thing that has been always bothering me since I do not know when. 

What if one day I change? 
Change to someone better is brilliant but what if the other way round? Not saying I am good now but worrying about becoming someone bad.
Kalau cakap soal what if memang takkan habis.Takkan.

Then, what's my answer to myself?
The answer is I do not know. But Allah knows.insyaAllah,with His help, I am just going to try my best.And also, I was asking Him to provide me with good companies who always remind me of good things and also a husband who is willing to try his best embarking a journey with me to Allah. That's all I can say to myself. That's all. 

Then, are you sure? Life is going to be long, are you sure you can do that every single day?
Wallahualam. I honestly do not know. But I was thinking, keep on learning, seeking knowledge; Makrifatullah. The more we learn about Him, the more we fall in love with Him, the more we want to please Him and our prophet, Muhammad.

And also I learned, remembrance of death is the destroyer of desires and pleasures in this world. Life is not long, its too short, sayang. Even you are tired doing good things and avoiding bad things, say to urself what if you die tomorrow? What will happen?

The answer that Allah just give me yesterday; Husnul Khatimah.
Istiqamah is not only about steadfast in  doing our ibadah. Not only that. It means how we constantly doing our ibadah by giving the best that we could  wholeheartedly until we die with husnul khatimah. That is the real istiqamah.

Never ever comfort urself by saying. "Oh I think I am good enough already."
There is always room for improvement.Always as life is a constant struggle.

P/S: This note is actually a reminder for us especially to the person who is writing this out. Yes, for me.

Oh Allah,the Most Gracious and Most Merciful, make it easy for us, let us die in husnul khatimah. Ameen ya rabbalameen.