tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-49174374784774517352024-03-13T14:54:11.901+00:00get on with life!NajahMa.http://www.blogger.com/profile/10050006546000250269noreply@blogger.comBlogger192125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4917437478477451735.post-43676958859911400772019-08-24T07:35:00.001+01:002019-08-24T07:40:48.621+01:00Peri arrestAssalam semua.<br />
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Apa khabar?<br />
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Alhamdulillah saya sihat. Kembali buat nights. Sobs. Yes first night out of four.<br />
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So started my shift 8pm- with many jobs. Banyak banyak jobs dalam transplant ni pun tak sebanyak oncall covering Acute Medicine / Care for Elderly Wards- 10 wards x 30 patients. Currently I am covering 30 patients on my own at transplant ward. 300 vs 30. So sis wont complain.<br />
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Anyhow.<br />
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Sis start my shift as usual.<br />
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Nurse datang cakap, "Doctor, boleh tak prescribe ubat tahan muntah yang lain, patient ini muntah. Muntah dia macam coffee ground vomiting campur darah."<br />
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To those who wonder how it looks like; cenggini<br />
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Me monolog. (Argh sudah). "Muntah darah ni new issue ke lama, blood pressure semua okay tak?"<br />
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Nurse; "Baru..blood pressure semua okay..Hb(darah merah) x drop pun."<br />
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Me:"Okay, jap lagi aku pi tengok, amik lubricant sekali; aku nak buat examination dekat back passage."<br />
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So I went to see his muntah; nampaklah satu mangkuk separuh penuh dark blood. Then I went to see this patient. This patient baru je had 3 hari lepas; transplant untuk buah pinggang, pancreas, usus kecil and usus besar ( Banyak organ kan so we called it as multivisceral transplant)<br />
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Patient ni masih OK- blood pressure still normal (127/74)but patient a bit sweaty and clammy. Examination semua OK. Nampak cam penat lepas muntah and sis nampak tissue kesan darah dia lap mulut. Tak buat back passage exam sebab dia ade stoma bag. Apparently, stoma output akan jadi malaena post op and that is normal. Patient cakap surgeon ada cakap kat dia yang dia ni ade risk of bleeding.<br />
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Anyway, bab bab bleeding- sis jadi over the top sikit nak pula patient just had his surgery- walaupun blood pressure semua masih OK, sis order 4 units blood (special blood sebab patient transplant ni tak boleh receive sebarangan blood) incase patient keep on losing blood. Bagi some drip fluids- untuk cover darah dia hilang from muntah. Cakap kat Surgical Registrar - alkisahnya sekian sekian so that they are aware kalau kalau patient tiba tiba crash. So we are waiting bloods from lab nak check darah merah punya count lepas muntah darah.<br />
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Sekali tengah deal dengan one new patient due for renal transplant tonight; tiba tiba cardiac arrest call bunyi.<br />
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Berlari sis pecut- sekali rupanya call itu from si pakcik muntah darah tadi.<br />
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Die dah hampir arrested dah, kira hampir nazak. Mata dah naik atas. Bed pulak tak boleh nak diflatkan(geram aku), patient tengah position duduk covered with blood. Hampir hampir nak buat CPR-but I could feel the pulse and pt started coughing. So I did not start. We called cardiac arrest team.<br />
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Luckily another doctor was around, registar in renal who happened to be at the ward, I heard he said Igel. Aku cam sedar diri; eh, I am the only airway trained doctor there- kelam kabut start protect his airway dia sebab he is still vomiting blood! So I suctioned his vomit ( he is already on recovery position). Baru nak perform jaw thrust- anaesthetist mai! (yeay)<br />
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Surgical registar aku suruh aku undurkan diri and pergi deal dengan renal transplant patient yang due for theatre, kena request urgent blood products prior operation.<br />
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By that time, cardiac arrest team sampai and they took over the patient.<br />
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Drama drama.<br />
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My surgical registrar made me ended up talking to Endoscopy Consultant (specific for transplant patients) on the phone for an urgent endoscopy for this actively bleeding patient.<br />
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Patient itu ended up pergi theatre terus for exploratory laparotomy (cari source bleeding) lepas endoscopy was clear. Rupa rupanyanya sambungan blood vessels untuk organ usus kecil dia actively bleeding.<br />
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Sekarang patient di ICU. Alhamdulillah. Ribut ribut sis malam tadi, patient still OK. Lepas dok lari lari sini sana; still dapat rasa kaki still bergetar getar kesan terkezut patient hampir arrested tadi.<br />
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Itulah al kisah penuh drama di malam pertama kita buat nights. Biasanya it will take only one super sick patient can delay semua benda. But somehow, bila dah pukul 2am, things mula calm down.<br />
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Renal transplant patient lagi satu tu tak jadi sebab quality kidney yang didonate tu tak bagus. So sis mula siapkan kerja kerja yang di handover awal shift tadi.<br />
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Sembahyang maghrib dekat medical student seminar room, sebab nak jalan pergi Chapel jauh sikit. Nasib baik sempat solat- coz I went straight to solat after assessed patient masa mula mula dia muntah darah. Ada Qiblat Google- so korang boleh pakai ni je nak tahu qiblat mana, takpayah download mana mana app.<br />
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Sampai di sini sahaja coretan kali ini. Nanti insyaAllah ketemu lagi.<br />
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<i>Najah Daud </i><br />
0730 24/8/19<br />
<br />NajahMa.http://www.blogger.com/profile/10050006546000250269noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4917437478477451735.post-49883684330888740382019-08-16T06:14:00.003+01:002019-08-16T06:14:26.147+01:00Transplant JobSalam semua.<br />
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Harini kita borak borak sket pasal transplant.<br />
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So transplant ni super specialised. Addenbrooke's Hospital ni tertiary centre and one of the leading transplant centre kat UK.<br />
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So dia buat transplant<br />
- Liver<br />
- Kidney<br />
- Multivisceral (including pancreas)<br />
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So boleh jadi penderma organ itu<br />
1) masih hidup (living donor) or<br />
2) from orang yang sudah mati -DCD (Donation after Circulatory Death) or DBD ( Donation after Brain Death)<br />
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Ada doktor kat sini datang from India cam internlah sebab katanya dekat India, semua transplant memang from living donor. Takde yang from orang yang sudah mati.<br />
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Dulu masa kerja Neuro ICU, ada few times aku yang kena withdraw care from patient sebab patient macam dah takde harapan. Like patient tu bergantung sepenuhnya dekat mesin. All this withdrawal care and agreement for organ donation tu memang dah ada thorough discussion dengan family semua. <br />
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Macam contoh ada satu patient tu, perempuan umur muda, 27 tahun. Tengah susukan anak 3 bulan, tiba tiba rebah and tak sedar diri. Suami dia buat CPR. Tahu tahu rupanya ada bleeding dalam otak and sebab teruk sangat, she was certified as brainstem death. Kira dah meninggal, tapi jantung, paru paru semua still working sebab machine tolong. Kalau remove machine, jantung berhenti. Sedih weh hari yang die kena withdrawal of care and organ donation, family amik rambut and cam replika bentuk tapak tangan dia sebagai kenangan untuk anak lelaki dia yang 3 bulan. Dia kan breastfeed so susu masih banyak time tu. Sobs.<br />
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Sambung balik cerita pasal withdraw care. So masa withdraw, apa aku buat aku matikan ubat yang support blood pressure dia, tarik tube pernafasan keluar dan tunggu blood pressure and nadi turun..sampaila line straight (macam kat drama drama tv) -this can take few mins, few hours..so far time aku memang 20 mins gitu- then certify patient's death dalam masa 5 min. Lepas aku certify, aku and nurse terus tolak jenazah tu ke dewan bedah.<br />
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Dalam dewan bedah, surgeon surgeon dah prepare dah nak operate straight way to ambik organ organ for donation. So aku kene announce kuat kuat "Ye saya dah sahkan kematian si polan ni". Terus diaorang potong. So kira time NCCU dulu aku side tolong mendermakan orang punya organ. Ada orang kata kalau tengok diorang amik organ2 tu cam rakuslah gak. Aku tak pernah tengok lagi.<br />
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So fast forward, sekarang aku side yang nakkan organ tu. <br />
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How it works here, bila ada kematian yang di plan cam aku cerita atas tu and patient is for organ donation, transplant surgical team akan pergi ke hospital tu untuk retrieve organ. Tup tup after few hours, transplant coordinator akan alertkan patient dalam waiting list for organ tu untuk datang hospital untuk organ tu. So kerja aku adalah bila pesakit sampai aku akan ambil darah mereka untuk pelbagai test and jalan ke 4 labs untuk personally hand delivered darah darah tu. Lepas buat ambil history, examine macam biasa.<br />
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Bila organ dah sampai hospital ni, macam macam testing diaorang buat dekat organ tu untuk make sure organ still okay. Bile semua okay- terus masuk theatre. Aku takdelah join theatre sebab sis bukan surgeon. hehe. Tapi boleh je kalau nak tengok. Macam night shift semalam, tak sempat nak blogging ke apa, tiba tiba 2 new patients admission pukul 4 pagi sebab ada 2 buah pinggang (from satu jenazah) dapat pukul 1pagi semalam. Kira satu patient dapat satu. Memang al kelam kabut la sis.<br />
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Aku teringin nak tengok organ retrieval punya proses just untuk experience, maybe one day before aku habis rotation ni. Macam menarik je nak tengok.<br />
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Baru dapat call from transplant coordinator cakap, ada satu new patient admission untuk liver transplant hari ini tapi bukan sekarang, patient tu datang pukul 8.30pagi. (yeay aku habis pukul 8pagi) Haha. Ada one day tu, ade liver tu pernah datang from Manchester, melampaukan? Manchester ke Cambridge 3 jam kot.<br />
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So anyhow tu jelah karangan kita pada hari ini. Bahasa dia and ejaan dia macam sis type text. Maybe boleh next time sis boleh skemakan sket.<br />
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Okay, 4th night oncall habis dalam 2 jam lagi insyaAllah. Weekend cuti, Isnin kerja day shift insyaAllah.<br />
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Sampai ketemu lagi kawan kawan. Have a good day. May Allah ease everything for you guys, ameen ya Rabb.<br />
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Najah Daud<br />
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<br />NajahMa.http://www.blogger.com/profile/10050006546000250269noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4917437478477451735.post-7010807323296488192019-08-14T05:00:00.000+01:002019-08-14T05:09:12.256+01:00MashaAllah! 4 years last update. Assalamualaikum WBT.<br />
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Ape khabar semua?<br />
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Ya Allah, lama sangat tak update blog ni. Last update Oct 2015. Lepas tu, I dont know what happened.<br />
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Alhamdulillah, still dapat access account ni.<br />
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So, lets flashback what has happened in the last 4 years ( Really ?!?)<br />
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<b>Nov 2015</b><br />
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Sis bertunang hahaha. Probably sebab tu blog jadi senyap. From tulis blog jadi tulis asyik karang message dekat tunang (gitu).<br />
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Sebenarnya dalam pada bertunang, I was busy applying for jobs(training post). Sebab Aug 2016 nak kena masuk dalam training. So apply job, busy with portfolios, interviews.<br />
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Time ni tak sure nak stay UK or not.<br />
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<b>January 2016</b><br />
Sat for my MRCP part 1 - alhamdulillah passed<br />
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<b>May 2016 </b><br />
Sat for my MRCP part 2 (written)- alhamdulillah passed<br />
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<b>Aug 2016</b><br />
Alhamdulillah dapat kerja dekat Cambridge University Hospital. Therefore hasrat nak balik ke Malaysia setelah habis HO tapi hasrat ditangguhkan dulu since dapat offer training post dekat hospital sini. I thought that it would be good for it to be in my CV.<br />
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<b>Sept 2016</b><br />
Wedding day! MashaAllah sistur bernikah dengan pujaan hati kanda. It went so fast tup tup kawen. Nnt kita story bab kita berkenalan dengan hubby tercinta okay?<br />
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<b>Nov 2016</b><br />
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Alhamdulillah dapat tahu pregnant. Masa tu macam tak percayaaaa. Syukur sangat. I had a very bad morning sickness. 4 bulan sistur pegang gayung dalam rumah. Rasa xnak kerja doctor dah.<br />
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<b>Dec 2016</b><br />
My bestfriend; Nik Idzni Dalila passed away due to renal cancer. (Al fatihah)<br />
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<b>May 2017</b><br />
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Went home for maternity leave, balik awal sebab takut tak boleh travel naik flight bile da sarat sangat.<br />
Najib & Farah wedding reception<br />
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<b>Aug 2017</b><br />
Sis nak tambah berat 30kg. Happy sangat makan Malaysian food (adoi)<br />
My lil princess Fatema was born on 28/8/2017. MashaAllah, nak branak sakit sisturrr.<br />
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<b>Feb 2018</b><br />
Maternity leave came to an end. Back to UK- sambung balik training.<br />
Naqib is already here sambung degree in Accounting at City Uni London<br />
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<b>June 2018</b><br />
Sat for MRCP Part 2 (PACES) failed. Nangis nangis sis. Jangan buat main.<br />
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<b>Nov 2018</b><br />
Took a break from study. Then start study and stay late at hospital for practise once dah tahu bile exam date. Sat again for MRCP Part 2 (PACES) - alhamdulillah passed<br />
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<b>Dec 2018</b><br />
Went for Umrah with hubby Fatema babah mama abang naqib nawfal , alhamdulillah teramat.<br />
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<b>June 2019</b><br />
Mak abah datang UK<br />
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<b>July 2019</b><br />
Naqib graduated<br />
Mama babah semua datang for naqib's graduation and my RCP membership ceremony<br />
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<b>Aug 2019</b><br />
Me writing these updates during my night shift as senior house officer (SHO) in transplant.<br />
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Nnt sistur nak cerita camana sis kenal ngan husband sis. Sebab kalau boleh, nak anak cucu boleh baca (gitu).<br />
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This is my 4th day kerja dekat transplant - my second night oncall out of 4. Everything is just so new because transplant ni super specialised- ade multivisceral, liver, kidney, pancreas transplant.<br />
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Kalau sistur cover acute medical wards and care of elderly wards- semuanya dalam 10 wards- satu ward 30 patients. Tak sempatlah jari jari sis nak menari atas keyboard ni. Setiap 5 mins mesti kene bleep.<br />
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Doakan oncall sis berjalan lancar. Sampai ketemu lagi ye insyaAllah.<br />
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Husband sistur pesan kalau baca ni 4444kali in one go, hasrat kita akan dimakbulkan. Kalau tak dapat 4444 kali, kita buat sikit sikit. Orang kalau biar sikit lama lama jadi bukit. Gituu. Jom hafal.<br />
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Okay guys, I need to eat something. Doakan sis tengah apply job lagi.<br />
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Wassalam<br />
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Najah Daud<br />
0438 14/8/19<br />
Ward G5 (Transplant)<br />
<br />NajahMa.http://www.blogger.com/profile/10050006546000250269noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4917437478477451735.post-25324743042967571812015-03-08T10:58:00.002+00:002015-03-08T11:07:03.347+00:00My very first outing dengan mat saleh!Duduk sini berapa tahun?hurmm nak masuk 6? Haha! Adalah kawan mat saleh tapi cam takat berlatih OSCE, hi bye lepas tuh dah. Yang kali ini, macam proper outing. Like spend masa dari tengah hari sampai malam.<br />
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Sebab-sebab aku jarang lepak dengan mat saleh ke orang bukan Islam.<br />
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<u><b>1. Cara lepak lain. Diaorang enjoy arak and berpesta sampai pagi. </b></u><br />
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A; Jom lepak pergi dinner.<br />
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Aku: ....Erm tak surelah. Tengoklah camne.<br />
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A: Jomlaahhh dinner je.<br />
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Aku: Maybe not....(Yelah tu. dinner je. Tapi lepas itu borak sampai pukul 10/11pm. Lepas tu pergi shisha lepas tuh pergi bar, lepak sampai pagi, aku dahlah tak drive. Nanti kena tunggu tak pun kena amik taxi memalam sesorang. Taknak aku. )<br />
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<b><u>2. Aku rasa leceh nak terangkan aku kene chow jap untuk solat, tak makan itu ini. Kadang macam malas nak panjangkan cerita so aku just bagi alasan. Contoh, </u></b><br />
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Situasi bila lepak reramai sekali.</div>
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A: Buat apa?</div>
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A: Alaaa buat apa?</div>
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A: La tak boleh solat nanti ke?</div>
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Aku: Tak boleh. Ni ada masa dia. Nanti masuk waktu ketiga. Yang kedua nanti tertinggal.</div>
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Aku: 5 kali solat.</div>
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B: Oh aku syiah. Najah sunni. Syiah boleh combine. Zohor and Asr. Magrib and isyak. So 3x sehari je. Takpun aku balik kerja, aku solat semua sekali harung.</div>
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<b><u>3. Benda yang borak tak sama. </u></b></div>
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Kira otak aku jammed. Takat cakap hi bye apa khabar oklah.Gossip dia bukan orang ini bercinta dengan sapa. Gossip diorang dia ini peringkat dia ini tidur dengan sapa terus. Helloo? Takleh brain langsung. Menyesal aku tahu.<br />
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Balik kepada cerita outing.<br />
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Aku x hesitate sangat nak keluar dengan dia ini. Sebab sama tempat kerja. Aku dah terus terang aku ini camne cara hidup aku. Tak minum arak, tak pergi berpesta, tak pegang lelaki, makan makanan halal, solat. So jadi bile keluar aku rasa senang gila. Sebab aku tak payah nak mencipta seribu alasan untuk tak buat apa yang dia buat.<br />
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Dia datang jemput aku dekat rumah dengan kereta dia yang comel.<br />
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<b><u><span style="font-size: large;">Bawah ini aktiviti aktiviti yang kitaorang buat sama sama.</span></u></b> Aku selitkan juga perbualan yang bagi aku pening jugaklah nak jawap. Hehe.<br />
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Kitaorang skate untuk 2 jam! Nak patah gaklah pinggang ni. But dari sini, kitaorang borak perbezaan cara hidup and budaya kitaorang. Kawan aku cerita, sini lain gile from hidup aku. Perempuan boleh tidur dengan sesiapa je. Adalah yang sensible. Kawan dia seorang, mak bapak strict sangat suruh ikut agama Kristian, Kawan dia terus mengandungkan diri sebagai tanda rebel. Haha! Kat sini, lagi mak ayah larang, lagilah diaorang nak buat. Bukan rasa nak je, tapi buat terus. Sini, kalau bercinta terus macam laki bini. Takpayah nikah. Ala macam cerita mat saleh dalam TV. Apa korang nampak, macam itulah.<br />
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A: Kire bila kau dah kawen kau tak payah tutup aurat?<br />
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A: La kenapa?Kata untuk laki kau ke. Dia dah nampak. So tak payahlah tutup dah bila keluar rumah and kau dah kawen pun. (Bukannya kau boleh kawen laki len)<br />
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Meet Emily!</div>
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A:Najah, cukurlah kening. Nanti lawa.<br />
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A: Ala takpelah nanti aku bawak kau untuk maintenance.<br />
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A: Kenapa?Kenapaaaaa? Murah gile je. Tiga pound je.<br />
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A: Aku tak nampak apa beza buang misai and cukur kening. Kening lagilah jadi kan lebih perempuan.<br />
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Aku: Hurmmmmm. Aku tak rasa ini issue dia. Aku buat sebab aku nak wat bukan setakat ikutan. Cam kalau kau suka orang, kau ikut je apa die suruh buat sebab kau percaya dekat dia. Camtuhlah dengan agama aku ini.<br />
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Aku: HAHA.Aku dok sini tapi aku kawan dengan orang local yang bukan mat saleh. haha. Majority Asian. Kalau kau datang Whitcchapel baru kau paham. Kawan kawan aku ramai Pakistan, Bangladeshi, Somalian, Cina, India and paling ramai Melayuuuu! haha<br />
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Najah jom buat kek. So, bersama samalah buat kek. Hehe. Sementara nak buat aku perlu Maghrib. Jadi dia tunggu kat katil aku. Aku solat. Dia cakap eh bukan tadi dah solat? Solat lagi? Finally dia dapat tengok camne aku solat. Selama ni dok hairan aku solat camne. Haha<br />
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<b><u>Inconclusion:</u></b><br />
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Alhamdulillah, it was a very productive day. Aku rasa bestlah lepak ngan dia. Aku happy yang die hormat cara aku and raikan cara aku rather than aku kene ikut cara dia. Aku di sini bukan dalam posisi nak judge cara hidup orang bukan Islam seolah olah aku lagi baik tapi peluang ini dapat bagi aku selami pemikiran and cara hidup diaorang. </div>
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Sendiri menjadi saksi yang haram menjadi sesuatu kebiasaan dan halal menjadi suatu yang sangat janggal. Apa yang Nabi Muhammad SAW cakap akan berlaku, aku jadi saksi. Aku jadi takut. Salah satu tanda kiamat ibu melahirkan tuannya. Kawan mat saleh aku pernah cakap "Mak aku adakah orang gaji aku." Terus aku cam........ </div>
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Lagi satu sekarang, if ada nak buat something especially dalam melaksanakan kewajipan sebagai seorang Islam, terus terang je senang. Selagi kita boleh hormat cara hidup diaorang yang x de pegangan agama selagi tu diaorang x ada alasan untuk tak hormat pegangan and agama hidup aku. Respect does not mean kita approve it kan.</div>
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Moga moga Allah bagi kekuatan bagi kita lebih kuat iman, istiqamah and berikan hidayah pada kita semua termasuklah kawan mat saleh aku seorang ini, ameen ya rabb!</div>
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NajahMa.http://www.blogger.com/profile/10050006546000250269noreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4917437478477451735.post-25984754947023738472014-11-09T15:00:00.002+00:002014-11-09T15:29:17.080+00:00-------“You have everything about you.”-------<div align="center" class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;">
Someone I knew once said this to me.</div>
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<span lang="EN-GB">Aku terdiam. Berfikir panjang. Everything?. No, I don’t. The grass on the
other side is always greener kan. Always. Your friends’ posts on FB/Instagram/Twitter
even your own posts. People nampak macam bestnya hidup dia/kita. Ada dua rasa we can pick; nak rasa emo sebab
jeles or nak rasa happy sebab genuinely happy pasal that person is happy. Tapi
thats it. </span></div>
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<span lang="EN-GB">Social media is really a snapshot about your life. A snapshot about a
moment of happiness/sadness/anger/ whatever mood you tried to potray in that
particular post. It doesn’t tell you more than that. Unless you actually live/stay/travel
with that person for many days. Then only you know the conflicts that she/he has
within herself/himself, people around her/him, family issues, financial issues, health
issues etc. </span></div>
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<span lang="EN-GB">But this is not the license for you to feel
happier or luckier if you are actually better off than that person bila tahu
all the problems she/ he has in life. The idea is to reflect within ourselves,
setiap orang ada struggle dia sendiri termasuk kita. Paling penting kita
bersyukur bila senang, sabar bila susah. Kalau rasa tak sabar dah, ambil sabar
yang baru letak atas kesabaran yang lama supaya kita lebih banyak sabar lagi. </span></div>
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<span lang="EN-GB">I
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<span lang="EN-GB">“Kedengkian hanya akan memakan amal
kebaikan kita.”</span></div>
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<span lang="EN-GB">So better not. Kalau ada rasa jealous, lepaskan perasaan itu.
Lepaskan, its not good for ourselves. Meh sama sama rasa happy. Kalau kita nak post something dengan niat nak jeleskan orang lain, then dont post it. Niat dah salah awal.Paling penting niat kita.</span></div>
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<span lang="EN-GB">Moga yang menulis dan yang membaca ini
sama-sama amalkan. insyaAllah </span><span lang="EN-GB" style="font-family: Wingdings;">J</span></div>
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<span style="background-color: white; font-family: 'Helvetica Neue', Helvetica, Arial, san-serif; font-size: 13px; line-height: 16.25px;">"Sometimes your joy is the source of your smile, but sometimes your smile can be the source of your joy."</span></div>
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NajahMa.http://www.blogger.com/profile/10050006546000250269noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4917437478477451735.post-23137522530181506052014-11-02T20:41:00.000+00:002014-11-02T21:33:33.292+00:00Psychiatry.<div class="MsoNormal" style="text-align: center;">
<span lang="EN-GB">Psychiatry.</span><br />
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<span lang="EN-GB">Alhamdulillah! I am reaching towards the end of my
Psychiatry placement. Already? Yes! Already! Alhamdulillah, tak percaya
rasanya. There are sooooo many things I have learned from this rotation!</span><br />
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<b><span style="font-size: large;"><span lang="EN-GB" style="text-indent: -18pt;">1.<span style="font-stretch: normal;"> </span></span><span lang="EN-GB" style="text-indent: -18pt;"><span style="font-stretch: normal;"> </span></span><span lang="EN-GB" style="text-indent: -18pt;">Childhood is the best
indicator for adulthood</span></span></b></div>
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<span lang="EN-GB" style="text-align: justify; text-indent: -18pt;"> </span><span style="text-align: justify;">Most of my patients yang paling susah nak deal with are personality disorder patients. Bila sentuh pasal zaman kanak-kanak, Sexual/physical/emotional abuse are part of it.Diperkosa (wah my malay is still so good :p) oleh ayah/uncle/abang.</span></div>
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<span lang="EN-GB">Therefore, I could really appreciate, how important it is institusi kekeluargaan dalam membentuk keperibadian anak anak from kecik. Bak kata pepatah, melentur buluh biar dari rebungnya. Mak ayah perangai elok, insyaAllah anak-anak. I have seen my patients. Wondered how their parents are. Majority, mak ayah pun are going through the same things as them. Very complicated to deal with. Tapi this is not a generalisation. Sometimes, mak ayah perangai elok tapi Allah bagi ujian. :D</span></div>
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<span lang="EN-GB">So I advise to myself and to u too! Everything(Akhlak, Ilmu ) start from ourselves. From us, turun dekat anak anak turun dekat cucu turun dekat cicit. InsyaAllah. </span><br />
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<span style="font-size: large;"><b><span lang="EN-GB" style="text-indent: -18pt;">2.<span style="font-stretch: normal;"> </span></span><span lang="EN-GB" style="text-indent: -18pt;">Sometimes I just get tired of
them.</span></b></span></div>
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<span lang="EN-GB">One time, my
patient cut herself dengan serpihan kaca. I went to attend the patient. Examined
the laceration. It was realy painful, bleeding. Menggelatar patient tu sebab sakit..
Advised for sterile strip and just glue the wound together. Then, pesanlah jangan buat
lagi please.</span></div>
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<span lang="EN-GB">Guess what ? Dia
buat lagi. Even korek dia punya wound using a plastic spoon. I was called again
for 2-3 times to see her. Time tu rasa nak cubit and say, </span></div>
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<span lang="EN-GB">“Hey! Kan harituh sakit, kenapa buat lagi? Kalau buat lagi, xnak
tengok dah“</span></div>
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<span lang="EN-GB">But then, I
reflected. Can you imagine? How Forgiving Allah is. I did something silly. I repented. Buat dosa,
I felt so bad, I made my heart sick, then I came back to Him. I was about to do
something silly again, know the consequences. Buat lagi. Minta ampun balik kat
Allah. Again and again and again. MashaAllah He never get tired of us.</span><br />
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<b style="text-indent: -18pt;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span lang="EN-GB"><span style="font-stretch: normal;"> 3. </span></span><span lang="EN-GB">Treating symptoms only will
never help people to cure.</span></span></b></div>
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<span lang="EN-GB">Oh okay. She is
depressed. Give antidepressants. Oh she is maniac, stop antidepressants, give
mood stabiliser. Oh she is so agitated, give lorazepam/haloperidol. Then we
have ward review, we tried to sort everything out from financial (benefits),
employment until housing issues. Giving whatever support we could possibly
give. We were trying our best to minimise any risks leading relapse upon their discharge.</span></div>
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<span lang="EN-GB">Then again. Re-admission.
Due to overdose. One of my patients cut her tummy with knife. It was really
deep and she inserted CD into the wound (What?!?)</span></div>
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<span lang="EN-GB">Sometimes, we don’t feel
right. we feel serabut. We feel so low. We went out to have fun. Came back, feeling
more depressed. Listened to music. Watched movies. No, this does not feel
right, thinking we had fun but it didnt last long. Ini semua symptomatic relief. Then we know what we need. We need Him. Only Him. We need to speak to Him more. We need
to listen to things that will make ourselves closer to Him. Also we need my parents
and the right person for advice. List the things that we are worried about, and
buat satu satu, seek help from Him, insyaAllah Allah permudahkan. :D</span><br />
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Kawan bukan Islam said that her hati tenang sangat bila kat mosque. MashaAllah its amzaing right? :)</div>
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<!--[if !supportLists]--><span style="font-size: large;"><b><span lang="EN-GB">4.<span style="font-stretch: normal;"> </span></span><span lang="EN-GB">Dealing with people that will
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<span lang="EN-GB">Nurse: Doctor, patient ini
saya rasa ade urinary tract infection. boleh tak awak jumpa dia? </span></div>
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<span lang="EN-GB">Me : Hurm, kenapa awak
cakap macam itu?</span></div>
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<span lang="EN-GB">Nurse: Saya rasalah. Saya
rasa lebih baek awak pergi jumpa.</span></div>
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<span lang="EN-GB">Me: Awak dah buat urine dipstick test tak?</span></div>
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<span lang="EN-GB">Nurse: Belum.</span></div>
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<span lang="EN-GB">Me: Kalau dah buat baru
panggil saya.</span></div>
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<span lang="EN-GB">Time ini rasa macam. Come
on Nurse. Benda ini common sense. Jangan nak pass tanggungjawab je keje. Haha.
Rasa nak marah. Then I started to reflect. Being kind to those who are kind to
you is ordinary. To be kind towards those who are mean to you is awesome. And our
Prophet Muhammad SAW is such a good example kan. So, Najah, please have a good
manner and patience please!!!!</span></div>
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<span style="font-size: large;"><b><span lang="EN-GB" style="text-indent: -23.9999980926514px;">5.<span style="font-stretch: normal;"> The m</span></span><span lang="EN-GB" style="text-indent: -23.9999980926514px;">ajority thinks that religion is no longer a p</span><span style="text-indent: -18pt;">riority.</span></b></span></div>
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<span lang="EN-GB">One my patient
came to me. Really close to me. It was quite intimidating.</span><br />
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<span lang="EN-GB">Patient: I like
your attire. Why are u wearing a headscarf.</span></div>
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<span lang="EN-GB">Me: Because I am
a Muslim.</span></div>
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<span lang="EN-GB">Patient: Ohhh,
you are! I didn’t know this.</span></div>
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<span lang="EN-GB">One of my
nursing staffs said tak ke rasa pakai tudung ini macam rimas. Tak ke leceh nak
buat kerja. Then I said no. My friend cakap, cabutlahhhh tudung, saya rasa awak
sepatutnya cabut tudung! Awak mesti nampak lagi cantik x pakai tudung. I looked
at her and I said, “What do you mean? InsyaAllah, no, never.” </span></div>
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<span lang="EN-GB">My friend
(lelaki) nak ‘sep’ tangan and I was like. I said this inside my heart. {No. I couldn’t
do this. Sebab I know I will feel so bad if I sep his hand.} While laughing I
said, “Sorry, I don’t do this.” And guess what? He doesn’t mind at all. One my
friend knew about this and he said “Seplah tangan aku Najah, kau duduk kat Negara
ni mana boleh tak sep tangan. Beberapa saat je sentuh.” Then I still said no.
He took his hand away.</span></div>
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<span lang="EN-GB">People will
challenge you on your faith. Tak kisah lah staff nurse, patients, kengkawan
kerja. You just have to protect it for the sake of Allah. Never allow them to
ridicule your stance, belief that you have held after these years. </span></div>
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Assalam. Well it has been awhile (again selalu type this as intro). Dulu rajin update blog, sekarang I feel like I wanted to write something, then lama-lama lupekan je terus. Anyway, alhamdulillah, I am working young lady now. Gila tak percaya. (Please doakan my visa application goes well. ameen). 5 years ago, started medicine in London. Straight from boarding school, college and uni life. Nak tahu satu benda? Living in boarding school made me a bit skema with some things. Dulu masa uni mula-mula, tak reti nak spend masa tengok movies sangat. I felt guilty whenever I was not studying. Lama-lama kinda cope bit by bit. Ada masa kena lepak, tak boleh study je. Its not realistic at all. Life is not about studying jekan. There is more to it. So, I started travelling, do things that I love, kemas and decorate bilik. Well, I really enjoy decorating my room sebab my room is where I sleep and rest. So kena cantik. Kalau tak cantik nanti x happy duk rumah, nak pulak memang jenis x merayau sangat unless ada tujuan.</div>
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And sekarang routine slightly the same as before. I mean like duduk seorang, tapi I am working. Pergi kerja, balik kerja. Rumah is like my comfort and safe zone. Life is a bit different kot. Now tempat kerja, jumpa macam macam orang, patients, nursing staffs, doctors. Bila lunch, my colleagues akan ajak lepak sekali, then I ll be like, "yeap , lets go!". But satu I was really concerned about. My break is only half an hour. How could I possibly fit lunch and solat in half an hour? Well, nak juga socializing, tapi sebagai hamba Allah, definitely, we need Him. But you cant always say no to peoplekan. Like no lunch together, coz I need to pray. Islam is about hablu min Allah and hablu minan nas. Jaga hubungan dengan Allah, jaga hubungan dengan manusia. So, its between these two. Kalau tak mingle lagilah, how can I spread the words of Islam through my actions and characterkan. So I said to myself. Go to lunch,but excuse myself quite half thru it sebab nak solat bila masuk waktu. Fair enoughkan? Bila hak Allah ditunaikan, He will make everything easy for me.Najah, ingat nak seribu daya taknak seribu dalih.</div>
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My mum said to me. Stay firm with your principles. My principles about life.You are a working adult now. Some people might be thinking, dah kerja boleh buat apa suka. Well, if I sit down and think, to be honest yes. I can just do whatever. I got my degree. I can have fun with my new friends. Go shopping as much as I want. Wear branded stuffs. Orang ajak lepak dekat bar ke apa. Socializing. Tengok cinema semua. I can do them all. I am a doctor, I work hard so I deserve to have fun. Tak ada siapa tahu and tak ada siapa boleh marah, since its my life, not theirs. I have no commitment. But well, well well. Hold a sec Najah. Then, I asked myself is this what I truly want in my life?Just hearing them pun dah rasa like a fantastic and an amazing life to look forward too. Tapi....at the end of the day, we will feel empty inside. I have no doubt about this Beza dia macam ini tau, dulu masa medic school, its different sebab kita asyik beringat oh kena dapatkan degree, so jangan buat entah apa-apa. Now dah habis degree, boleh buat suka hati apa. </div>
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I think what really defines someone is, how she is when she already has everything. Macam contoh, "Oh I tak suka barang branded, tak suka travelling, tak suka benda mahal-mahal. I orang nya simple je, suka jimat." Yes itu boleh jadi 2 situasi. First, kalau memang dia suka jimat or it can be secondly, keadaan kewangan dia tak mengizinkan dia buat macam itu or in other words, dia tak mampu. So if dia memang banyak duit tapi memang jenis belanja jimat, she is an amazing woman. Tapi kalau dia cakap sebab keadaan kewangan dia x benarkan dia, maybe she needs to think twice sebelum keluarkan statement macam tu. Gitu. Manusia akan diuji dengan kesusahan and kesenangan. Kesusahan dah memang tentu susah, sebab biasanya menarik kita kepada pergantungan kepada Allah. Tapi kesenangan tu yang sebenarnya lagi dua kali susah, sebab orang yang senang itu tak rasa dia susah. Kita ada high tendency nak rasa leka, rasa semua senang. Kesenangan boleh jadi kita nak jadi insan bersyukur, lagi dekat padaNya or sebaliknya (Nauzubillah).</div>
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insyaAllah I am going to travel (again?) tomorrow early morning to see my beloved high school best friend. I am so impulsive. I was thinking about it yesterday, bought the ticket just now, and leaving (insyaAllah) tomorrow. Please doakan semua okay ye and moga Allah permudahkann! Ameen ya rabb. :DD</div>
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Apa kabar? Alhamdulillah saya sihat! and I am here at Peterborough, all by myself for shadowing week insyaAllah as a future foundation year one doctor very soon (Tak percaya!). So nak dijadikan ceritakan I was really bored hari sabtu coz I didnt turn up to the hospital for one day and a half before. </div>
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I need to get some groceries dekat ASDA. ASDA itu ala ala Tesco, tapi lagi murahlah. Ingat nak naik bus sebab malas jalan kaki and taktahu jalan. Ada je GPS tapi battery iphone ni cepat mati so better naik bus. Tengah2 jalan sekali nampak one Pakistani lady dengan budak budak, tengah tolak pushchair baru lepas keluar from restaurant. </div>
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So berjalanlah kami bersama sama, meriah rasanya sebab budak2 tuh asik main je, lari sini sana. Biasalah budak budak. Dalam borak borak tu, dia ajak datang Mehfil-e-Zikr. Macam majlis dzikir-dzikir selawat dekat rumah mak dia esok harinya (hari ini; Ahad). So, from nak pergi ASDA tadi, pergi fun fair. Seronok gaklah. Sempat naik satu game. ya Allah sebenarnye memang dahsyat gak ah bila fikir game itu macam mana. Memang pusing, 360 degree. Tak cukup benda itu pusing, kerusi kita duduk pun pusing sekali. So bila dah habis game macam pening kepala,ambil keputusan balik, on the way balik pergi ASDA.</div>
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Okay then hari ini. Alhamdulillah pergilah majlis itu. Ya Allah, segan mak aiii. Semua perempuan tapi semuanya mostly dah berumur and tak pandai cakap English. Haha. Aku seorang Malaysian tak ada bangsa lain kecuali Pakistani. Aku banyak sengih je (sorry bajet comel) sebab tak tahu nak cakap apa. Dengar dia orang cakap tapi obviously tak paham dia orang cakap Urdu. But aku sedar satu benda lah, sedar betapa indahnya Islam. Tak kisahlah aku faham bahasa dia orang ke tak tapi end of the day kalau buat majlis dzikir selawat ke apa masing masing use the same language. Arab. Masing2 menyembah Tuhan dan Rasul yang sama, Allah dan Muhammad. Lepas dah habis, makan makan sikit. Roti, kuah and curry. Makcik makcik situ semua impressed and excited bila aku sebut dal sebab tak sangka aku tahu. (Orang Melayu makan kuah dal kot).</div>
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Guess what? Little that we knew, mashaAllah Allah let me met this lady. Bukan setakat this lady je, through her I met her mum, children, sisters and her friends too! Tak sangka langsung! Itulah, Allah nak tunjukkan kekuasaanNya. Kadang benda kita dah memang dah tahu Allah Maha Pemberi apa semua tapi Allah bagi kita suatu jalan cerita yang kadang macam tak sangka eh Allah letak suprise rupanya. Suprise ini bukan saja saja tapi untuk upgrade keyakinan kita yang plateu phase lama sangat, as a reminder that He will provide no matter what. No matter how impossible it seems.He knows what we dont know.</div>
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NajahMa.http://www.blogger.com/profile/10050006546000250269noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4917437478477451735.post-66120583910841565092014-05-04T16:44:00.001+01:002014-05-04T17:00:22.251+01:0025th birthday!Alhamdulillah ya rabb! Happy birthday to me!<br />
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Alhamdulillah feels so good to receive soo many warm wishes and suprisingly tahun ini banyak dapat personal wishes from my friends. Banyak through whatsapp, fb and phone texts. And also banyak through fb posts specifically dedicated for me! Rasa special gituu. Alhamdulillah soo lucky to have them <3 .="" nbsp="" p=""></3><br />
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Alhamdulillah.. I am a doctor now. Alhamdulillah, my brother managed to get straight A's in his SPM. And this at very hour, I am currently in Washington, waiting for my flight going back to London after being in States for almost 16 days. :D Then, insyaAllah catching a flight back to Malaysia on the next day. Yeay!</div>
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My heart flutters so much thinking about insyaAllah for my very first meeting with my very 1st nephew, Baby Adam! Yeayyy! I look at his photos most of the days. And now he is 5 month- old.Haha ketagih sangat dah najah ni.</div>
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I ll be back insyaAllah very soon to talk about my travelling experience in States,Turkey and Jordan this year.See you insyaAllah very soon. Please make dua I arrive from Washington-Detroit-London Malaysia safely, ameeen. </div>
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NajahMa.http://www.blogger.com/profile/10050006546000250269noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4917437478477451735.post-74332292619331783262014-02-10T23:06:00.001+00:002014-02-10T23:07:42.839+00:00The beauty of Al-Quran. <img src="http://www.missionislam.com/family/luqman15.gif" /><br />
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26th January 2014: 50 days before my final exam of medical school.</div>
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MashaAllah. Time flies too fast. The sentence I always repeat to myself or any people who I met after I havent seen them for quite some time.</div>
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I had a very intense weekend, 2 days of Dr Clarke's Medicine and Surgery Course. This weekend is the most productive weekend ever in my medical school, academically.Magic. Haha.</div>
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Tomorrow is my GP intro day. For another 6 weeks. Then study break. Then exam. Then Spring Break Holiday. Then Elective. Then insyaAllah, graduation day.</div>
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Please make dua I ll be more focus in my studies. The nearer the exam is, the tempation to do other things other than studying is getting higher too! </div>
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Tak boleh camne Najah. Dah Najah. Okay, I need to go. Take care. Wassalam.</div>
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<span style="text-align: left;">If possible, whatever I write in my blog, I am trying to be so careful with what I write here, in case it is going to hurt anyone's feelings in any ways. And also, I have always believed that we will be tested on what we said. That is why in any post, the post is a reminder especially for myself first then only others. :)</span></div>
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<span style="text-align: center;">I learn that a real Najah(my name in Arabic means success) ;) does not mean when you are better than the others, but it means when you can be better than yesterday. That is the real success. Deep in everyone's heart, everyone wants to be a good person right? I want to be one too! High five!</span></div>
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<span style="text-align: center;">But the path to be a good person who has a good heart is not easy. Our desire dislike things which are good for our heart. There is a hugeeee conflict of interest between our desire and heart, no wonder I personally find it very difficult to be steadfast in doing good things. But then I remember</span> clearly the conversation I had with my Ustadha Hamidah when I was 17. I said to her; </div>
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In life, we can make a long list of thing need to be done in order to help us to have a good heart. But then, as a beginner to have a good heart, the first thing I said to myself to do is, let us look after our solah. An ustadh said once, if you are doing solah, but it does not prevent you from doing sins and helping you to do more good things, then check the quality of your solah. Means, there is definitely something wrong in your solah. Let us see what we can learn out of our solah to practise in life.</div>
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If we find it hard to concentrate in solah, its even harder to concentrate in other tasks such as in lectures.Imagine how hard we tried sometimes to just stay awake in lectures; drink coffee, chewing sweets, sleep early at nights. So, why not we try harder to stay focus in our solah? The ability to concentrate in our solah will help us to concentrate in other tasks in life. So lets work on this insyaAllah.<br />
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Solah in western world especially in public area, (we have a very limited space to pray) made us very very very conscious about what are the non muslims thinking about us while praying. Forget about them. Solah is a special relation between you and Allah. You are not trying to please them but you are pleasing Allah. If their thoughts are making you worried so much, this reflects on how much you want to please people than Allah.So, in our life, lets get our intention straight; to please Allah before we start doing the actions.<br />
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Okay, I am in the middle of doing my assignments and I ran out of ideas and I need to submit them by tomorrow. But then it's time to pray Asar. While praying, that is the time when your brain started to think of new and brilliant ideas to add in your assignment. Okay, alright I am gonna add them as soon as I finish praying. Let s get this solah done quickly.,<br />
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1. Why you start thinking about your assignment in solah? You were not focusing!<br />
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Sabar is when you fight with your desires in order to please Allah. While praying, I should have constantly fight with my brain and my heart to concentrate on my solah rather than letting myself got carried away with my assignments. Secondly, I should have not rushed in solah! NO. It's wrong! Imagine you are meeting someone who you respect so so so much and need his help in every single thing in your life, then you just blurted words which you did not understand them and just left the meeting when you are done. It does not sound right at all, right? We should talk and ask for his help properly. Only words from heart will touch another heart, then only the person who ask help from will feel our sincerity and help us in any way he wants. That is when we are dealing with human beings. Imagine how we should have been when we are asking help for Allah?<br />
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In 2005, my brother, Nabil got an offer to study medicine overseas. That was the exact moment when he inspired me so much to do well in my SPM (Malaysian Certificate of Education), get a scholarship and then thinking of studying medicine in the UK or Ireland. Personally, I have always wanted to give something really big as a gift to my parents, so I said to myself, lets get A star for all of my ten subjects as a gift to them.</div>
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Personally, with the help of Allah, I think I worked so hard. So so so hard until I slept like only 4-5 hours averagely and I did not even sleep during the day. I did not know how I survived in the class for the next day but alhamdulillah amazingly I did. Sometimes with the help of a picture of a guy I liked back in school, I became more awake then became more attentive during class. :P</div>
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Anyway, SPM exam passed and the results came out. Instead of getting 10 A stars, I got 9 A star and 1 B. To be honest, I was so sad because I could not give my parents the gift I wanted them to have so badly. I went back home, crying and sat in my room for the whole day. No one in the family had the courage to talk me.</div>
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But then, I said to myself. No, I could not stay sad forever. This will never change my SPM result. Believe in Allah, He did not give what I wanted because He wanted to give something that is much much much better. Since then I never look back. I took IB diploma and alhamdulillah here I am in Barts as a final year medical student. </div>
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This personal experience made me reflected a lot on how I used to think, act and behave before when I was younger: </div>
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: To be honest I actually so grateful that I went through this experience. This prove to me that how much you do or you work for something, in the end Allah will give you what He thinks the best for you, not what you think is the best for you because only Allah knows what we do not know.</div>
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: All the process as in working so hard, helping out friend to do well in their studies, sitting for the exams, and most importantly, how my response on what happened. Alhamdulillah, these things have made myself today. </div>
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: People always said, do your effort, then doa then tawakkal.But actually, I learned from an ustadh, he said that dua is something you do all the time. All the time. Not only after you finish with your effort. :) Allah even said, make dua to Me, I will answer them. ;)<br />
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So this post goes to my little brother, Naqib who is currently sitting for his SPM and also it is a reminder to myself to practise on things I know. Whatever happens in the future, embrace it and always see what we could learn out of it. So we will be more sabr and syukur in life, insyaAllah. </div>
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<i>as your only sister, there is nothing more I have always wanted for you except whatever happen to you is the best in the eye of Allah. So please do your best for your exam. I strongly believe that you have tried your best to revise and making dua to Allah. I wrote this with the hope to make you feel more confident to perform your best and convince you that is the crucial time for you to put your whole trust in Allah and He will absolutely decide what is the best for you. Make loadss of dua and I will always keep you and your friends in my dua too! :)</i><br />
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I love you loads. Study and jawap leklok okay?<br />
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P/S: To you who are reading this, please make dua Allah will ease everything for my younger brother, his friends and all other SPM candidates. May Allah provide them the strength to do their best. Ameen!</div>
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<br />NajahMa.http://www.blogger.com/profile/10050006546000250269noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4917437478477451735.post-48168011734221509042013-11-02T10:33:00.002+00:002013-11-02T11:24:08.295+00:00Hopes.Assalam ;)<br />
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How are you? Alhamdulillah, I am all good.Makin meningkat umur makin banyak fikir. I am not sure if this post is going to benefit you or not, but insyaAllah I hope it will in some ways :). </div>
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Yesterday, I was thinking loads.People who knew me, they knew how crazy I could be at times. I love fun things loads. I am very opened which I think sometimes to a certain extent that is still the case when I am with my close girlfriends. High school friends. I used to be very open but at the same time, trying my best in practising Islam. Stick tightly on things what I think its right and stay away from the wrong ones. But after being here for at least four years, I came to a point of
realization that I am a quite different person now than a person I used
to be. I think and see life differently. Just like seasons, people do change. You change and I change too. Constantly. But most importantly, lets change for better kan? It is still long way to go to be a good and pious woman, but with the right intention, Allah surely will guide us, insyaAllah. :)</div>
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I am 24. So lets list 24 things up to see what can we do in our journey to Allah.<br />
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1. Remember Allah loads, making dua and do selawat loads loads and loads to the Prophet.<br />
2. Be a good daughter, wife and mother who is beautiful inside and out. <br />
3. Get a degree in Medicine. Be successful in family and career life.<br />
4. Never tired learning about Islam and Arabic. Learn and practise and practise and practise.<br />
5. Fall in love with the right man at the right time. <br />
6. Look after solah and increase the level of khusyuk. <br />
7. A woman who loves to smile and only brings out her best at the cost of great pain.<br />
8. Never hold grudges.Forgive, forget and love in return. <br />
9. Have lots of love in her.<br />
10. Calm, sabr and syukur no matter whatever happens. <br />
11. Die in husnul khatimah.<br />
12. Treat and help people nicely for sake of Allah and have no expectations in return.<br />
13. Having the right intention in everything she does.<br />
14. Does not waste time on things will not benefit her.<br />
15. Be pure, pretty, honest and clean woman.<br />
16. Matured, proactive and wise in making decisions.<br />
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So after 5 months, now hopefully I am back as a more matured (insyaAllah :P)and wise young lady who is currently in her final year of Medicine! :)) Alhamdulillah ya Rabb!<br />
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Sekejap sangat masa. Sekejappp! Tak percaya *Gosok mata*. Banyak rahsia rahsia, not rahsia but what I have gone through, masa KMB sampailah sekarang alhamdulillah dah bergelar 4th year medical student.<br />
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Lepas itu, bila dah sedar banyak dah conteng blog ini, fikir fikir balik sayanglah kalau mengabaikan blog ini. Tahun ini macam kurang menulis. So, terus menulis ini. I have many things to look forward for. Many things. insyaAllah sekiranya diberikan umur yang panjang. Jadi, saya kena bersemangat bertungkus lumus belajar sekarang supaya insyaAllah dapat bergembiraa dengan <u><b>things that I am so looking forward to</b></u>.Antaranyaa:</div>
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Minggu depan insyaAllah, my little brother all the way from Jordan is coming over. Little brotherlah sangat, he is going to be 22 nanti. Dia cuti so dia saja nak melepak. I am soo happy about this, even insyaAllah I am a bit cuak, having my exam very soon, exam module on the 28th June, and my final exam for 4th year on the 15th July sampai 24th July but having him next to me will make me work harder biidznillah. I will cook for him and insyaAllah do my best to take a great care of him takpun dia yang jaga orang lagi lagi orang nak exam ini. So mama and babah takpayah risau. hehe </div>
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My cousin is getting married and many of my friends are getting married too. Alhamdulillah and barakallahufiikum to them. I am sooo happy for them :). And cuti kali ini lama sikit sebab insyaAllah nak buat hospital rotation dekat Darul Ehsan Medical Centre. I ll make sure my parents will spoil me much. I have been away from home for so long. So nak sangat rasa pergi sekolah, sarapan and bekal makanan disediakan and beramik and berhantar. :p </div>
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My 6000-8000 words of essay for 4th year student selected component. Alhamdulillah, I have just submitted my final draft yesterday to my tutor. I have to say one of the thing make me worried at times ialah kewujudan essay ini sebab selalu fikir mampu ke tak buat. Like seriously. Cuak gelly! And now sekarang rasa macam alhamdulillah relieved sangat and speechless and rasa nak jerit unbelievable melampauu!</div>
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Bismillah. Alhamdulillah. I finally have the courage to sit down and talk about things here.</div>
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Berapa lama tak borak dekat sini? It's almost 2 months. Dalam 2 months, I have gone through sooo many things. To be honest, more or less, it's a life changing experience. I have never imagined I will go through this but it happened, with Allah's decree. I thought I was quite matured on certain things but I guess I am not at all. I have still soo many to learn.</div>
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I read some of my previous posts. All my principles, my hopes and my fears in my life. So much easier said than done ha? Yes indeed. Sangat. Sangat senang nak cakap tapi bila melalui baru kau tahu rasa dia bila apa yang kau pegang kukuh selama ini mula terusik disebabkan sesuatu. Baru kau tahu tinggi langit bumi, asam garam kehidupan, baru kau sedar kau baru setahun jagung dalam kehidupan ini.</div>
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Sorry dear, I am being so vague about things kan? Tapikan apa aku nak cakap, whatever circumstances yang kita lalui, please percaya and yakin dengan diri sendiri, those are the processes of purification of our heart. Do not ask from Allah for an easy life, but ask from Him a stronger heart.Even sometimes, I do listen to lectures, I know some advices about life, how to handle them but it will never be the same until u experience them yourself. That s why orang cakap experience is always the best teacher.</div>
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For those who knew me, I am not really the one who share everything in my life easily. Sebenarnya, I am quite expressive and talkative person, but when I am facing some challenging moments, I would rather keep them to myself until I solve them and in fact kalau nak bagi tahu biasanya when I am done solving them, itu pun just to my parents and some of closest friends. Oh my goodness! Why I sound soooo serious right now. Haha!Nothingg serious sebenarnyaaa.</div>
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Dengar macam kritikal sangat apa yang aku lalui itu. Tak adalah serious sebenarnya. Aku macam baru melalui phases yang mematangkan diri aku, which is benda itu normal lah kan and semua orang lalui tapi this time around aku reflect terlebih sikit. Maybe sebab dah 24? :p Itu yang macam terfeeling extra sikit. Aku still sengal saja macam dulu cuma nak cakap aku most probably matang lebih sikit boleh compared dengan keadaan yang aku bajet aku dah matang itu. :P</div>
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MashaAllah, I know! It has beeeen ages kan. Lama sangat tak update blog ini. Tahu tahu dah 17 March 2013. I am already half way through of my 4th year. Ke mana perginya masa? I do not even know.</div>
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How are you? Alhamdulillah, I am all good! Macam biasa, ada hari bersemangat, ada hari yang macam tak nak buat apa apa. Hari tak nak buat apa apa itu no good! no good at all. Sebab itu sama ada my nafsu or syaitan menghasut. Ustaz Amin pesan bila rasa macam helpless sangat, recite this as much as we could.</div>
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This is a random post really. I was on my way back in the train with my GP-mates, when they started to ask me so many questions regarding Islam out of curiosity.There were two of them. I am the only one moslem who was trying my best with Allah's help to give the best possible answer. I found it quite tricky especially with my lack of knowledge and also, with the language barriers.It was all started when my moslem friend was telling us that she is going to Mecca for umrah next week during the GP placement but she was not there when this whole Q&A took place, since she drove back home from GP. </div>
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I really want to write more. But seriously, my time. I do not have much time really.Been quite busy lately. Tapi please siapa yang ada opinion, tolong eh. Thanks ! :)</div>
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Bismillah.Alhamdulillahirabbilalameen.</div>
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Assalam and hi semua. Yeah, I know, it has been a long timekan. How are you? Alhamdulillah, I am doing great. Tak sangka dah 2013. Time flies really fast.</div>
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So, many things happened in 2012. Lets have a look.</div>
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<u><b>1. Umrah.</b></u></div>
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Alhamdulillah, umrah is one of things that I wanted to do sooo badly. Umrah ini kira the MAIN highlight for 2012. I am so glad that Allah actually gave me the opportunity to go there. insyaAllah nak sangat buat lagi,if possible with my beloved family and more importantly nak pergi Hajj juga!</div>
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Oh watch this video. It's recap of my umrah. Credit to Farah Asyikin.<br />
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<u><b>2. New sister.</b></u></div>
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Oh yes. Alhamdulillah. I got a new sister in law last 22nd December. Tak sangka abang sendiri dah kahwin and insyaAllah I am next in line. Haha. Semoga Allah permudahkan urusan dalam mempertemukan saya dengan jodoh yang Dia pilih. Ameen. :)<br />
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So, actually I went back to Malaysia during my winter break.</div>
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Alhamdulillah, I have to say my third year was quite hectic. I actually do not know how I cope with it. Allah tolong. Had two hospital rotations outside London back to back for 6 months, in between pergi Umrah. Towards my final exam, moved out from my hall since some refurbishment took place for Olympic 2012.<br />
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Meet my most favourite flatmates for 2 years. A day before my exam.</div>
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<b><u>4.New people.</u></b></div>
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Alhamdulillah, I am so glad that I met two nice people who actually adore me like their own daughter especially when my parents are far away back in Malaysia. Alhamdulillah, alhamdulillah, alhamdulillah. Thank you Allah for letting me to meet them. Semoga Allah memelihara dan meredhai hubungan terbina ini. Ameen.<br />
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<b><u>5. Projek Kalsom</u></b><br />
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Alhamdulillah, basically, Projek Kalsom is a motivational programme for students who have excelled in their studies but come form less fortunate backgrounds. So, alhamdulillah, did my best to help them out, met so many nice people and had a very wonderful holiday with my very bestfriend, Feefa Malek. :)</div>
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I seriously thought I have a lot to talk about tapi for this particular post, I managed to recall only 5 of them. Tapi tak apa. Its okay. Yang ini yang stand out dalam banyak banyak perkara. </div>
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Hidup ini tak selalunya indah. Saya pun ada hari yang saya menangis, saya marah, saya benci. saya sedih. Tapi kalau tulis posts or statuses, tak cerita sangat bab bab itu. Sebab kalau boleh bab yang macam itu biarlah rahsia antara saya dengan Allah saja. :P Eceh.</div>
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Tapikan, sebenarnya, dalam hidup ini, tak kisahlah apa berlakukan. Yang kita kena kisah sebenar benarnya adalah apa yang kita ambil hikmah daripada setiap kejadian yang berlaku. How we actually respond and deal with situation yang Allah dah takdirkan untuk kita. Kita nak jadi marah or tenang, redha and bersyukur.</div>
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Kadang kadang bila rasa marah mengenai sesuatu, try tanya balik diri kita. Sebenarnya kita nak marah siapa? Kita nak blame siapa? Nak blame orang A or orang B or orang C? or sebenarnya kita nak marah and blame Allah? Sebab at the end of the day, Allah yang takdirkan kejadian itu berlaku kan. </div>
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Inilah monolog dalaman yang selalu sangat berlaku untuk menasihatkan diri apabile things do not go as what I have planned. In short, as a reminder to myself, we can plan but remember Allah is the best planner. So, do not get upset when things do not go on our way but make lots dua may Allah make us strong and make us much closer to Him. Ameen.</div>
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Ops, what is my new year resolution? I actually havent thought about it properly but I really hope I could make new resolutions not only every new year but every new day too! insyaAllah. What's urs? :D<br />
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Wassalam.</div>
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"So, I would say an Asian Muslim woman with this kind of situation* will not be accepted by the mosque, where else a converted White British woman in the same situation will be accepted by the mosque. I just wonder why, maybe because it has to do with race or something?"</div>
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Oh, great. Of all the days. Of all the days. Of all the days. This is the day yang aku nak duduk depan sekali. Menghadap lecturer. And persoalan ini ditimbulkan.Kun Fayakun.</div>
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"Oh well. I think this particular situation is totally acceptable in Islam.This problem has to do with the culture I would say. Sometimes, a mosque can be dominated by a certain culture of people which gossiping and talking about someone behind her back is common. A woman in this situation can be easily stigmatised by the certain group of people. But the main thing, the situation mentioned in the slide is acceptable in Islam."</div>
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Haha. Aku cakap tak adalah smooth macam aku type. Tapi lebih kuranglah bunyi and maksud dia macam itu. Tapi terasa penerangan aku tak cukup mantap and tak concise. Aku rasa antara sebab sebab dia yang menyumbang:</div>
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4. Emosi bercampur baur. Rasa marah and emo kot.</div>
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Right after aku habis cakap, for 5 minutes after that aku tak dapat focus on lecture. Aku terfikir-fikir jawapan yang aku bagi. Did I say the right thing? Allah okay tak dengan jawapan aku? Orang lain faham ke? Cara aku cakap hanya berdasarkan emosi ke? Did I offend anyone? Tapi aku dah sehabis baik untuk berkata-kata tidak berdasarkan rasa marah. What was the best answer that I should give?</div>
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Then lepas itu, aku fikir fikir balik. Teringat dalam segmen Mukmin Professional, Ustaz Pahrol selalu cakap. Kadang-kadang bila dia dengar siaran ulangan segmennya di radio, mesti dia rasa he could have given a much better answer and advices to the callers. But dia kata semua benda berlaku atas izin Allah kan. Oleh itu, Ustaz Pahrol pesan kalau berbuat apa-apa, janganlah kita bergantung sepenuhnya ke atas keupayaan dan kemampuan diri kita sendiri tapi sandarkan lah pergantungan kepada Allah. Sebab kalau bergantung pada diri kita, kita akan jadi tertekan, stress and mula menyalahkan diri sendiri if things went wrong.</div>
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Lepas teringat pesanan Ustaz Pahrol, aku macam mula melepaskan rasa "I could have given a better answer." Kawan muslim aku yang ada dalam lecture cakap, dia faham aku cakap apa and dia kata if she was the one yang kena jawap, dia rasa dia tak sure if dia dapat control perasaan emo dia and she might end up offending other people feelings. That comment actually put me at ease a bit.</div>
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Alhamdulillah, tak apalah ya Allah. No matter what happened as long as I am trying my best, insyaAllah everything will be fine. Pengajarannya adalah.</div>
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1. Dont stop learning. Belajar lebih banyak lagi pasal Islam kerana Allah. Especially in English.</div>
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Okay, dah. Itu saja nak conteng. Take care semua and may Allah protect us with His blessings. Wassalam.</div>
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I hope who is reading this is in the best of iman and health. Alhamdulillah, I am done with exam. It was on Rheumatology, Orthopaedics, HIV, Sexual Health, Health Care of Elderly and also Dermatology. This time around, turning up to hospital macam lepak-lepak but not with the content. Banyak nak kena study before exam.</div>
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Now I am gonna tell you a story. Story ini macam kentang sikitlah. But bear with me, okay? </div>
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I was so happy when my cousins were coming to London. So, I went to the airport untuk sambut diaorang since they are going to Kent straight away after arriving at Heathrow. So, being an excited and kecoh girl, saja konon nak pergi airport nak say hi and nak excited-excited bagai because we're breathing and standing at the same land gituu.They arrived at 0720.</div>
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So, I went out at 0645 and bajet sampai around 0800. But unexpected thing happened. I was supposed to change tube at Acton Town, pergi towards Heathrow but instead I stayed in the tube sampailah terlajak two stations away which is at North Ealing. Then, catch a tube back to Acton Town, and naik tube balik tergesa gesa. Know what? I just realised I actually got into the same tube again going towards the tube station I went before, North Ealing. Time itu rasa macam ya Allah. What is happening to me?</div>
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Then I got a text from my cousin, saying that she was already waiting for their bus going to Kent. I was still the train and the time was at 0805. Still need half an hour before I reached Heathrow. Then I said to her, lets pray, lets make dua that I could make it. Then again, she texted, saying driver bus dah sampai. Then, I was like? Seriously? Lepas itu, my phone tak ada line sebab underground, so I could not reply her text.</div>
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So, then dalam tube, I was reflecting myself, okay, ini takdir Allah. Whether I get to see her or not, itu takdir. Takdir ketentuan Allah. I tried my best woke up early, went out early and I could have make it in time if I tak terlanjur ke North Ealing. Yang kelakar a bit tuh cause I actually a bit more conscious when I am travelling alone, so macam pelik macam mana boleh terlajak at the same station for twice? Memang kentang habis.</div>
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Tahu tak perasaan dia yang macam kita tak nak sangat benda itu berlaku tapi berlaku? Memang tak nak sangat, tapi kena. Ha time inilah Allah nak menjadikan kita orang yang lebih baik. Memang susah nak terima. Even nampak macam remeh saja, bukan berkaitan hidup dan mati, pasal nak dapat kerja ke apa, tapi dengan benda remeh macam inilah menguji kesabaran, keredhaan dan keyakinan kepada Allah.</div>
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So,back in the tube, now I have two options. To get mad to myself because of my clumsiness or to just stay calm, make lots of doa, selawat banyak banyak. The results are either my cousins are still there or they are gone to Kent already. Kalau they are still there, alhamdulillah I am very happy, if not I ll just take a picture of myself dekat Heathrow and make a caption, I was here but tak ada rezeki untuk jumpa Kak Ina.</div>
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As soon as I stepped out from the tube, I ran like no one else's business, like awak jangan kisah airport ini ayah saya yang punya.:P And know what? My cousins are still there though I arrived 15 minutes after I got her last text. Rupanya, pakcik driver nak rest for 40 minutes. Yeay. Alhamdulillah, I was soooo happy. Rasa nak sujud syukur terus sebab terlalu happy. </div>
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So inilah cerita dia behind the caption of my picture. </div>
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Lesson learned untuk mengingatkan diri yang lalai ini:</div>
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a) Bersangka baik kepada Allah, urusan yang baik PASTI dipermudahkan.</div>
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b) Redha selalu berkaitan benda benda besar like exam tapi let us practice with small small little things first.Macam contoh salah naik tube ini. </div>
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c) Doa dalam apa apa keadaan pun boleh, bukan lepas solat saja because Allah is always with us.</div>
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d) Also, reflect on what I have done, maybe this is one of my kafarah dosa.</div>
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Okaylah, esok I got class. Kena tidur awal. Selamat malm semua. Take care. Wassalam :)</div>
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